it's suffocating to live in here.
it's making my life miserable.
i dont want to believe that my life now is deteriorating.
i really wish to live in much happiness.
but i do not know why somehow some way, something i always got detered from the path towards happiness.
now it seems so hard to stay happy for one day for staying happy because unhappy things are bound to occur and i cant revert it.
i dont know why the heck am i a nurse.
i cant seem to be able to cope well with anger and sadness so why the heck am i here, studying as a nurse?
i think i did it for wealth and not passion.
i have never been the one to listen to one's problem attentively and give smart advices.
and i really hate myself for that. i've been trying to be a listener but but i will only find myself drifting away from the topics.
why am i like that.
im starting to hate my lie.
hate what im studying for.
hate my future career
and i even hate my name.
which i used to love it so much.
if only im not called angel.
if im only im more straightforward and am able to vent my anger infront of my friends
if only im not going to be a nurse...
if only, if only.....................................
kind of feeling these are being a burden to me.
hate my life. hate everything now...
♥ Wednesday, December 30, 2009
went to the zoooo today on a christmas daywe unexpectedly queued for nearly one hour, hmm nope 40 mins to be exact to get the admission tickets.
we had fun looking at the animals and taking lots of pics of them..
anyways the hippos' tail looks like a feces on the it's buttocks.
dont think i got it wrong baa..
and now then i know that the way crocodile reproduces female and male through really different way from us human beings..
human beings have female and male sex hormones to make us different whereas the gender of the crocs varied by the temperature of the nest itself.. cool right???
this is by far i felt the coolest thing i've known. :D
i really enjoyed myself today
♥ Friday, December 25, 2009
stayed home the whole day.im so excited that i'll be going to the zoo come morning.
hope that it's gonna be fun.
been so long since i've been there :D
meeting my poly friends 10.30am at amk bus interchange and im still up at this hour.. sheesh ..
hope it's not gonna rain..
♥ Friday, December 25, 2009
first day of hols ended... so fast...went to k songs with lin yeow in the noon till 5pm, then dinner at ljs and then went home to wait till the time to meet my mum and all at orchard.
and guess what we went there for?
we went there to take pics...
and and and... we entered one of the xmas tree and it's was really glamorous inside.
the decorations are dashing, stunning, undescribeable.
but look at it took long will get headache
cause too sparkling, too glittering.
it rained pretty heavily just when we reached the exit of the mrt on our way home.
afraid that the rain will spoil our shoes, me and my sis walked BAREFOOTED.
and i mean B-A-R-E--F-O-OT-E-D! home in the rain.
it was so much fun hahas :D i got so iexcited that i decided to dance in the rain but ling too embarrassed to do that with me ended up i became self- high...
end of the first day of holiday...
**I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. ----Roy Croft**
♥ Tuesday, December 22, 2009
i dont know if i sound like a desperate but im really waiting for my mr right to appear..........
♥ Sunday, December 20, 2009
today is full of MADNESS!!!
♥ Sunday, December 20, 2009
this attachment seems to have brought us closer to each other. i fi nd that the few of us who are in a same ward are much united than the other batch of friends in the other round of attachments.probably because the people whom i'm with now are friendlier.
im so happy that tomorrow's finally the last day.
imh there the secret recipe is having half price and all of us planned to go and buy the cakes there with the permission of our clinical instructor. quite a nice ci because he said to tell the staffs that he had allowed us to go down and buy the cakes and if they do not allow, we can call him to let him speak to the staffs.
had a slacking time during this attachment.. i'm so looking forward to the holidays..
i wanna meet cliques as soon as possible and i wanna go kbox/ anywhere to sing.......
Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.”
--Robert A. Heinlein
♥ Thursday, December 17, 2009
waiting for the attachments to endwaiting for my hols come
waiting for the one to appear
waiting for me to be a pro
waiting, waiting, waiting..............................................................................................................................
“Inside the heart of each and every one of us there is a longing to be understood by someone who really cares. When a person is understood, he or she can put up with almost anything in the world.”
--Ed Hird
“Come live in my heart, and pay no rent.”
--Samuel Lover
♥ Tuesday, December 15, 2009
by the way, qian mian nu lang is a pretty nice show:D
♥ Friday, December 11, 2009
my god!!! omg!!! imh posting is so so damn boring!!!all we need to do is observe what the staffs do, play with the patients till we are like one of them.. jkjk ahahas , sit there like the patient, talk to patient and that's all!!!there's really zero stuffs for us except interact with the patient because they are really well except that they are sick in the head and that's all. whatever activities we planned for them they are never keen to join us and we ended up playing amongst ourselves. how i wish this attachent will faster end how i wish they will stop hugging us..i wanna have meet up with cliques and have fun soon and i wold like dress up with my friends.yeah i know... im starting to like to dress up already. im already 18years old going to 19 next year. if i dont start now, i may have to wait till im old then by that time it will be too late i guess. gotta seize my youth and be pretty for then short short time i have. :D
♥ Friday, December 11, 2009
yippe!! last day of ttsh attachments!!
actually this ward not bad..
not much sulky staffs around with more friendly ones.
revised a lot of stuffs with mdm Tang. guess i will remember her forever.
i think she is the only CI that will push me to go back to school during attachment.
otherwise i will never go back there during attachments cause it is too tiring le.
looking forward to imh next week.
♥ Friday, December 04, 2009
